Sometimes I wish my life had a fast forward and rewind button.

[...so i can skip the hard times and re-live the great times.]

my life sucks. end of story.

everything just seem to be going wrong in every aspect of my life right now; friends, family, boyfriends, relationship, EVERYTHING. i hate it.

i'm too afraid to let go of the past, but i know i have to move on to the future. it just sucks because everything use to be gravy. Everything just seemed to fit in place. Everything was easier and better. I was happier.

what's happening?

IT BLOWS MY MIND

how much ive changed.
how much things have changed.

i cant get over it
because i never thought change would be so drastic
and at such a rapid rate.
its crazy growing up.
but i guess i wouldnt have done it any other way.
im still on the up & up though
so look out...

....Gosh, this song takes the words right out of my mouth..LITERALLY

3 Doors Down: Let Me Go

One more kiss could be the best thing 
One more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
This seems real to me

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
This seems real to me

You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me go...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I know...
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you dont know me

(big sigh) so much on my mind, I just want some one to talk to, but there always "too" busy for me, and it makes me mad that my "best" friends are just thowing me to the side, when I'm always there for them..and they can't be there for me just once?...hmmm, i guess this is when you find out who your real friends are......

Ohh I think they like me

Bailen, yales 

Muevan, suden 

Sientan el poder 

Del reggaeton latino 

Bailen, yales 

Muevan, suden 

Sientan el poder 

Del reggaeton latino 

Juss some random songs that have been in my head all week...

Well, its been a while since I've updates so here it goes:

Life here is PERFECT, or at least was perfect turns out that we might be outta here by the end of November.....gosh I'm so sick of this military moving shyt that I've had to live through my entire life, I'm ready to just live a normal life as a teenager, be wild and free, and quit moving every damn two or three years. I'm sick of it!

Grrrr...now I'm like hella pissed.

Well, today was the usual went to school, went home, went to work, chilled with the ladies and homeboys and now I'm back home...hmmm...how nice :)

Damn, does anyone use Xanga anymore...GOSH! I actually like xanga like fifty hundred times better than MySpace, and its not like anyone reads my xanga anymore, so it'll be like advice sessions for people....sure

haha, well, gosh this whole week has been like FREAKIN awsome...I don't know why, it just is...So, yesterday, I only had to go to school for 3 periods...after that, I went to New Town Square, had an orthodondist appt....woop-...got zee color changed...After that went to Quiznos, holy shnikeys, thats like best place ever, good-bye Subway, Hello Quiznos...Then I went to Jamba Juice, I don't know, something about drinking a Blue-eyed-and-Blueberry just makes my day...then I went home and slept for like ever, well not really, just until Vanessa called, then we all went to the "usual" spot and talked..yepp, just me, Vanessa, and Brian, it was actually quite nice, cuz unlike many, then actually listen...but goodness we stayed out til like 10 last night, then I came back home, and its like freking 11 o'clock at night and Brian called, lets see, he called and pretty much said "When ya gonna hook me up with Jessica?" <- ahem...LOSER...then Brian turns around todays and goes "hey jenn would you ever be interested in me" and I'm like "I have a boyfriend"....and so-on

The there was today....there's a school trip thats taking a tour around Italy and Greece, and me and the girls were thinking about jumping on that bandwagon....i mean c'mon what gets better then taking a 16 day cruise around Italy and Greece with your best friends?! Hmmm, there;'s this guy names Bob who follows me around and is like obssessed with me and its starting to scare me, cause I have like no clue what he's like but he's so infatuated with me, it so scary....

OOOOoooo...and today had luch with Willy, Nick, Courtney, Vanessa, and Jessica..it was nice, we bought this 20 pack of frosted sugar cookies and had like a contest of who could eat the most...I think Jessica won..hahah, yeah but they sure were yummy!!

Ohh...haha and during 6th period today (ldshp) me and Angelino delivered this trancript form around for this chick who was leaving school and she got like all D's and F's and Angelino is like "holy shit, I get stoned and I get straight A's" yeah pretty sad, he actually showed me his stach of pot too...

Anways, there is supposidly a category 4 hurricane comming this way..hmmm...kinda scary if you think about it, it might end up being like some New Orleans disastor....